Don’t Just Smile

I consider myself to be well educated and find great joy in making other people not just find a way to be internally happy, but to feel strong.

I have been through a lot, but I feel blessed for all of the heartbreaks, health issues and disabilities because on the flip side it has made me more compassionate and understanding.

It took a long time for me to put myself first. I believe it’s hard for women  to not feel inferior and base themselves on how men view them. The way women are often portrayed in the media as sex objects has been argued to be the backlash of the feminist movement. Women who are strong in movies and tv have more masculine characteristics. I enjoy dressing up, I have a thousand clothes, I cry when I’m sad and happy, I love romance movies and want to get married and have kids someday. However, I don’t think this in anyway makes me less than a man. Nor, should men be ridiculed for having feminist characteristics. I am a survivor. I stand up for what I believe in and I hold my own with me. I demand respect and give that same respect back to everyone even when they don’t deserve it.

Growing up with strength is tough. Society, although they don’t like to admit it, tries to put women back into the role of being a wife and mother and only care about how they look. You will meet all kinds of people in life who will want you to smile and keep your opinions to yourself.

The purpose of this blog is so that I can do the opposite and hopefully help influence others to do the same.

Being a feminine feminist is something I’ve come to terms with. For example, my emotional intelligence was seen as a flaw, me wearing makeup was  was supposedly a priority to look better for men, but all of these assumptions are false. I do it for me and to make myself happy.

I grew up with only one half of my foot which gave me characteristics to be empathetic to those who are mistreated because of how they look. I’ve been neglected, I’ve had my heart broken, I’ve been in the hospital so many times the nurses know me by name. I am more than just a pretty face.

I am artistic. I love to write, read, and sing. I love learning and I believe that critical thinking can save us from being corrupted by a money hungry world. I am an active feminist and write strong female characters in my novels that I write. I have so many more aspirations then getting married and settling down. I have dreams. I believe that I can achieve these dreams with positive thinking and hard work. I love my body. I love my family and friends and would read all day if I could. I want to be a professor, a published author and singer. In the last couple of years I’ve learned that I have a strength that was never encouraged by my peers to explore. I am happy.

I never just sit back quiet and smile. Emma Watson put it best “if not me, who? If not now, when?”